I was meeting with someone this morning and talking about the frustration of life changing. You feel like you are doing good, life is getting better, you are reaping the rewards of making different life choices but then…. Then doubt shows up and begins to badger you about how much progress you have really made, making you question if it is permanent or temporary, if it is just your false perception, a fluke. If you are reading this blog you know that slithering snake voice that I am talking about. That voice that has been trying to sabotage everything good you have ever done in your life.
The truth is recovery (change) is a process, it has a heartbeat of sorts. Because life is always moving recovery has ups and downs, good moments and not so good (let us call them learning) moments. Remember that this is part of the process. You have had years doing life one way and reaping it’s reward. You may not have enough time yet to trust that with this new way of doing life that when you plant stability you will get a calmer, saner life. When you plant love you will recieve love back (maybe not how you thought or from whom you thought). When you let go of control you will see the fruits of God’s hands beginning to intervene and make changes.
When you have spent your whole life trying to control everything so that you could feel safe then it will take time to see that letting go is a good idea and that God will take over! As you see God take over you have less and less need to cope. As you feel the love of Christ you are freer to love yourself and others.
Blessings…..
